haha i really don't know what im feeling now. im in such a mess. just fuck everything. really don't understand why. mostly i blame myself for everything that happened. i still think that it was me that made everyone left. maybe it was my attitude. my fuck up behaviour. maybe i wasn't good enough for anyone. cos everyone is leaving me! every single one of them! what have i done wrong? lol idk myself either. really really trying my very best to be happy and let everything go. he doesn't care, so why should i? he walk out of my life in a blink of an eye, so why should i give a fuck? ya. i'm okay, i'll be okay. soon.